A Rainy Afternoon

During my pregnancy, I began turning inward quite a bit, "nesting" and preparing my home for our new little one.  Now that we have a newborn in our midst, I continue to feel that pull of home.  The need to just be present here, even if it looks to everyone else like I'm simply puttering around the house.  I feel that urge to slow down, to take things a bit easier than my full-speed 90-to-nothing pace from earlier this year.  Nowadays, laundry calls my name during all my waking hours.  Little onesies, blankets, burp cloths and diapers all beg to be washed, dried, folded and put away.  There are chores to do and little lunches to make for Lila.  Parker's bus stop reminders on my iPhone often wake me from my nursing-induced nap in the afternoon.  It's still a busy time, but it's busy in much different ways than it used to be. This day, however, was relaxed and wonderful.  No agenda.  No plans.  Nowhere to be but here.  What a lovely idea.

The perfect blanket to snuggle up and watch the drips on the windows, don't you think?

Chris and Charlotte watched a little football together.  Online.  Chris is already trying to find her a Redskins jersey/onesie to wear on game days.  We had one when Parker was a baby, but I put it up somewhere to save it, and apparently I put it up a little too well...  and now we can't find it!

And what sort of rainy day would it be without a little baking?  Lila and I made a fresh cherry cobbler.

Her first and last bite.  I have to say, she appreciated them a little more once they were cooked in a sugar syrup and baked under a crust.  Girl after my own heart.

This cobbler was absolutely delicious.  Oh it was.  I might even share the recipe with you.  It's from one of my favorite cookbooks... an autographed copy of Paula Deen's The Lady and Sons Savannah Country Cookbook.  It's a spiral-bound book, just like all of the church ladies used to sell at the fundraisers.  It's comforting to me just to flip through all the dog-eared, flour-sprinkled, sticky-finger-smudged pages.  It's well-used and well-loved, as you can see...

And this is how I cooked dinner.  This child loves the Moby Wrap.  Thank goodness for it, too.  We decided to forgo the bulky infant car seat this time around, because I really didn't want to schlep that heavy thing all over town.  Plus, germ-infested strangers are a lot less apt to try and touch your cute little baby when you're wearing her.  :)  She rides in this, this or this for now.  (Another post to come soon about baby-carriers!)  :)

After dinner and bath time, I put Charlotte to bed and the older two continued to be their goofy selves in the kitchen.  Pardon the way they're dressed.  This is real life, is it not?  This is the preferred weekend attire for my two, and is more than typical if you knock on my door on a lazy weekend afternoon.

*Sidenote: If you follow me on Facebook, you'll know that Lila wears this purple Rapunzel costume just about every day.  She wears it around the house, she plays catch with Parker in the backyard in it, she wears it to Target and to the grocery store.  I pick my battles with this one, and I choose not to fight over this!  The Rapunzel dress has been mended twice, and this week I'll have to stitch it up again because it's unraveling in two more places.  But that is to be expected with a garment that is worn everywhere, everyday, for a month.

Anyhow, I love these photos partially because she's wearing that funny little dress.  It will always remind me of this stage in her childhood.

Then the four of us played Sorry on the coffee table.  Parker won, as usual, and Lila made up her own rules, as usual.  Some snuggling, two sweet bedtime prayers, one more drink of water, a few tears... and our lazy rainy day was confirmed a success.  Can't wait for the next one.

What would you choose to remember from YOUR rainy afternoons?  I'd love it if you posted about it on your own blog!  Include a photo of course, and please link back here in the comments.  I would love to see how others spend their rainy weekends.  Do you bake cobbler and play board games?  Do laundry and read magazines?  Or do you grab an umbrella and run outside in the middle of it all?

Introducing... Charlotte Marin Woods

She's here.  And positively adored.

Welcome to the world,

~ Charlotte Marin ~ 

Our baby girl arrived into this world at 2:35am on Monday, August 22, 2011.  She weighed 7 pounds and 2 ounces, and is 19 inches long.  She surprised us by being almost two weeks early (my guess date was September 3, which has been a running joke throughout this pregnancy... since that's "Labor Day" weekend.)  ;)

newborn and sibling photographbig sister Lila, three years old //  baby Charlotte, one day old

Her name is very special because, to us, it represents where Chris and I began, and where we are now.  He and I met in Charlotte, North Carolina in 1998.  We fell in love and began our life together there.  Marin (pronounced "Mare uhn") literally means "from the sea", which represents our life here now.  One of our favorite things about living in Florida is how close we are to the Gulf, and how much our kids love the beach (especially Parker right now).  Chris and I also were married on the beach a little over twelve years ago, and it's just weaved itself into our lives.

I promise to post Charlotte's wonderful birth story soon (and lots more photos).  Her birth was absolutely amazing for us.  And true to her name, she was actually born in water.  For now, let me just say that the amazing ladies at Breath of Life Birth Center in Largo are the most caring, attentive and supportive midwives and birthing team I've ever seen and known.  They have been so sweet to our family, so welcoming of our other children, and so prayerful and supportive of our entire journey toward Charlotte's arrival.  I can't recommend them highly enough, Mamas.  And a less-than-five-hour labor?  What a blessing.

Thank you so much to everyone for the well wishes, emails, Facebook greetings and sweet phone calls we've received.  We are really enjoying our first week at home together with Charlotte, finding our routine and getting to know each other.  We're all completely smitten with this sweet darling girl, so everything else has been put on hold for a short while.  I know a few clients are waiting on a print here and there, and those will go out soon (thanks to my fabulous husband and his help with matting and packaging!).  I go back to shooting in late October, so if you'd like us to put you down for a fall/winter session, please just send an email to stacey {at} staceywoodsphoto {dot} com, and we'll contact you back at our earliest convenience.  We greatly appreciate your love and patience during this precious time for our family, and I promise to keep you updated during my maternity leave with lots of photographs of this little one and her big brother and big sister!

xxoo,

Stacey

The Newborn I've Never Held

When I first met my nephew, this is what he looked like. NICU Baby Photography

Tiny and sweet in my sister's arms.  Barely five pounds.  Couldn't eat on his own, couldn't stabilize his heart rate (due to bradychardia).  He was born at 34 weeks gestation... coincidentally, the same progression I'm currently at with this pregnancy.

I flew to Kentucky just after he was born and visited him in the NICU.  I took this photo through the thick paned glass because I was not allowed to go inside and visit him.  I held my own two babies up to the window and introduced them to their newest little friend.  Parker was thrilled to have another boy cousin on my side...finally!

I left a lot of kisses, smudges, and salty tears on that slab of window glass.  I wished desperately to hold him, to smell his sweet little head, to touch his soft skin and trace his hairline with my finger.  To welcome this new little boy to our family.  But we were separated by the window.  He had to stay in the NICU for several more weeks, long after I had to return home to Florida.  I didn't get to hold him.

---

The last time I saw him (last night), it was just past midnight and he had just turned ONE.  Alas, we were again separated by a window.  He was wearing my son's shark pajamas, and he was smiling again in his mama's arms.  Only he was a lot bigger.  He has come such a long way in a year!

Although I'm thankful for these "windows" through which I get to see him smile, hear him laugh, and watch him snuggle his mama... I can't wait for the day when no screen separates us.  I want to grab him up and give him all these hugs and kisses that I've been saving just for him, for the past year.

Happy 1st Birthday, "Baby Finn".  We love you to the moon and back, little man.  XOXO (and even more smudgy kisses through the window).

Bedtime at our House

I read this quote just a few minutes ago and bowed my head in shame.  I often get so frustrated with my kids at bedtime... the opposite of this very sage piece of advice above.  You see, the last fifteen minutes before bedtime is often the most stressful of my entire day.  I believe my kids are in some sort of contest to see how rotten they can be and how quickly they can make Mama frustrated before she loses her cool.  Are your kids like that too?  There are always a dozen reasons to get out of bed... another request for water, someone's too hot, someone's too cold, he needs another potty trip, Lila needs Bitty Baby, where's Parker's blanket, please turn off the fan, can you find my favorite song?  One wants the door open and one wants it closed, he has his nightlight so Lila wants hers too, please one more book, scratch my back, etc.  Plus, my kids seem to bicker and pester each other until one of them is frustrated and the other is in tears.  And I am both frustrated AND in tears.

But something magical happens once they settle into bed.  As much as they fuss and fight during their waking hours, they refuse to sleep apart from one another.  We have a toddler bed plus a full-size bed in Lila's room, and Parker has a twin plus a trundle in his own.  They can spread their arms and legs out, have their respective bed all to themselves... but no.  Somehow they always migrate to one another before they fall asleep.  Lila begs to sleep in "da big bed" in her room with her brother, and Parker calls to us from his room until we give up and send him in to sleep with his sister.  Girly bedding and all, he could care less.  He's snuggled up with his built-in friend, and that's all that matters.

Tonight when I went in to peek at them (after all was quiet), this is what I saw.  I kissed them both, silently thanked God for these precious angels of ours, asked for forgiveness for being so short with them as I tucked them in tonight... and then I grabbed my phone to take a quick photo.  I couldn't help but share my two sweet babies with you here.

And no, the photo isn't sideways.  They were actually lying crosswise in the bed just like this.  Lila often has her leg thrown over Parker's hip just as she did tonight, and he usually has his arm around her tummy.

Parker spent a week at his grandparents' house in North Carolina last month.  He told me he slept with a pillow behind his back to compensate for Lila not being there with him.  And Lila slept with Chris and me, because she couldn't bear to sleep alone either.  It reminds me of sharing a room with my sisters years ago... when I moved away, we all slept with pillows behind us to fill the space in the bed left by the other sister.

I pray that they always stay this close as they grow up.  And that God will give me the patience to hold on during the frustrating evenings... because these sweet blessings come afterward.

xo, friends.  Sleep tight.

Why Photography?

Today I'm sharing over on The Creative Mama, as I often do.  Being co-editor and co-owner of such a wonderful online community is such a joy for me.  At the very least, it's a lock that I must write something either useful/informative (such as a tutorial) or something therapeutic for my heart (and hopefully yours) at least once a month.  No matter if I get the chance to share in such a way here on my own blog or not.  (Oh SWP blog, I promise to keep you updated very soon!)Anyhow, if you're inclined to know a few of the reasons why I shoot, why I'm a photographer in the first place, and why I keep clicking even on days that get the better of me.... then head on over here to have a quick read.

stacey woods photographerIn the meantime, this little girl here is one of the main reasons why I keep shooting.  This sweet girl, her older brother, her soon-to-be-born baby sister, and their amazing Daddy are what makes my heart beat, and they are why I will continue to document and preserve.  At the very least, our family's story must be told, and must be shared with future generations someday.

That's pretty important, don't you think?

xo, friends.

Musings, Updates, and Another Feature | Tampa Area Photographer

As I sit here surrounded by the silence of almost-bedtime, I am thinking back on what a full day it has been.  Today was my oldest child's last day of school for the year.  For now, Parker is the only school-age child we have, and this is such a momentous occasion for a sentimental Mama like me.  We are proud and excited that as of this afternoon, he is no longer a first grader!  Second-grade, here we come.  This fall will start his first full year in the Center for Gifted Studies (after being on the waitlist for months, a spot opened up and we transferred him from his zoned school mid-year).  We're so proud of him and all he has accomplished, and how beautifully he has transitioned into his new school.  He was blessed with an amazing teacher (we adore you, Mrs. J!) who has been so instrumental in teaching Parker in the way he learns best, and for successfully getting him caught up with the rest of the class, who have all been in the gifted program for the entire year. Today I chaperoned his last field trip, which was a walk to the park and lunch at the playground.  It was a joy to watch him play with his friends, and to see all of his buddies hug him goodbye and see the whole class wave and blow kisses.  It warms my heart to know that he's surrounded by these caring kids, within a world where some kids would pick on each other for no good reason.  (Although I will admit that I was beyond hot and felt so lazy waddling slowly through the park with my round tummy and flip-flops, water bottle in hand.  Florida Summer, please be good to this pregnant mama!)

© Stacey Woods

After we left the park, we had ice cream together and played a little Wii to celebrate his "graduation status".  Then I took a tiny power-nap (to make up for too many late nights recently), finished up some client work, and then picked up our sweet girl from daycare.  She greeted me with the biggest hug ever, kisses galore, and so many giggles.  I love this part of my day!  The kids had dinner with Daddy so I could get a little more work done here at home, and when they got back, Parker and Chris played a game of chess while I got Lila ready for bed.  I read a couple of books to the kids as we all snuggled up in Lila's bed.  (Little House in the Big Woods and Pinkalicious... one favorite for each of them!)

As I type this, tired and exhausted from this ordinarily extraordinary day, my ankles look more like cankles and the Braxton-Hicks have started back up again.  It's time I get some restful sleep and yet another glass of water, because this month is as hectic as a person could imagine!  Chris keeps reminding me that I need my rest now, more than ever.  I hate to admit that he's right, and I'm realizing that I do indeed have limitations now that I'm in my third trimester.

I'm getting lots of inquiries for maternity + newborn (or simply newborn) sessions, and I'm so grateful for that.  Getting to hold and cuddle those sweet little lives make me oh-so-anxious for our new baby girl to get here this Fall.  I can't wait to hold her and drink her in and soak up her sweetness.

Speaking of sweetness, I was honored when the very kind Courtney from Click It Up a Notch contacted me about featuring an article I wrote for The Creative Mama last year, entitled Dreamy Summer Light.  I love photographing my clients in the beautiful Florida sunshine, and I did a little tutorial / explanation on it last year for our TCM readers.  You can read Courtney's post by clicking HERE.  Thanks so much, Courtney!

 

Our Lucky Number Seven

Seven years ago this morning, I gave birth to a baby boy.  That baby boy made me a mama.  He made Chris a daddy.  He changed our world.  He helped us learn how to give, how to love more deeply, how to laugh like we didn't even know was possible. stacey woods photographyHe charmed grandparents, aunts, uncles, and cousins.  He became the first boy born to any of the Holbrooks since my own father, 51 years prior. He ensured that Chris would be able to pass down the Woods name to the next generation.  He is a wonderful big brother to Lila, and already so caring and protective of his baby sister who is still within my belly.

He is beyond intelligent.  He loves games just like his Daddy did when he was his age.  He is always on the hunt for a good joke, loves his macaroni and cheese, and will wait for "his wave", board in hand, until it appears on the sand in front of him.  His heart is so tender, and he is kind to everyone he knows.

He has continued to change us on a daily basis, teaching us so many things that we never even knew that we didn't know.  He ignited my creative spark and shaped my photography style.  He will never understand how important he has been to all of our lives in the past seven years.

tampa child photographyDearest Parker, I love you so.  I wish you the happiest of birthdays today, sweet boy.  Thank you for making me a mama.

A Milestone and a Cornerstone | My Pregnancy

I have reached a milestone with this, my last pregnancy.  I am twenty weeks with this tiny sweet baby, and I am happy to say that I finally have some of my energy back!  I haven't been terribly sick with this pregnancy, however the exhaustion has been overwhelming at times.  Caring for two young children, running a full-time business, managing first grade homework and a two-year-old's temper and desire to change clothes five times a day, plus dealing with the woes of a normal first trimester of pregnancy...  oh my.  It's been more than I can bear on some days.  And did I forget to mention that I gave up my Starbucks obsession, cold turkey, once our pregnancy test showed two pink lines?  Sweet tea, too.  Yep, "tired" was never, ever an adequate word to describe my state of mind for the first thirteen weeks! I try not to complain, because, really... it's such an honor to carry a child within your body, and there are thousands of women out there who would do anything to be in my shoes right now.  Anything.  I am blessed to be able to assist the Heavenly Father in a miracle, for the third time in my life, and I am so very grateful for this opportunity once more!

Now that my first trimester is behind us and I am nearing the end of my fifth month, I do feel more rested, energized, and my focus is actually renewed.  I'm so thankful!  I felt like I was running on about 40-50% capacity for a while there.  At this point, we are making birth plans, deciding on a name for our littlest baby, and looking at what the rest of 2011 might look like for my photography business.

maternity photography in tampa bayphoto courtesy of my son Parker, taken of me at 20 weeks 3 days

We actually did have a scare, you might call it, about two weeks ago.  (I didn't share it here, but I divulged a little bit of our story with my Facebook friends.)  I'll share the story with you today, not to complain, but because I have a feeling that I'm not alone in my thoughts about all this.  I'm still trying to make sense of it myself.  I've felt shocked, angry, confused, stressed, thankful, peaceful, frightened, relieved, suspicious, and most of all, grateful once more.  (As if expecting mothers need yet another reason to feel one hundred different emotions in a single day!)

My OB called us on Monday, April 5, with the surprising news that my alpha-feta proteins were elevated, according to my second round of the triple-screen testing.  This meant that our baby's risk of having spina bifida was higher than normal.  She said that our risk was actually 1:130.

Okay, stop right there.  When a mother hears something like this, she immediately shifts gears, mentally.  I certainly did.  I began right in with the questions: "what does this mean?  What is the normal risk ratio for spina bifida?  How high of a risk am I?  Are you sure?  Can you tell me about spina bifida?  What does it mean for our baby?  Will the baby be okay?"  I was disappointed, to say the least, to discover how very little my OB knew about spina bifida (next to nothing, in fact), and about what a normal risk ratio is for a patient like me.  When I inquired about the details of spina bifida, I was actually directed to a pamphlet that was given to me in a plastic bag of forms and coupons at one of my earlier visits.  A pamphlet.  This Doctor couldn't tell me what the "normal" risk range was... she said she really didn't know and she "wasn't smart enough" to read the tests, just the result it gave out.  She honestly only knew what my risk factor was.  And that they would have to take extra precautions at our baby's birth.... for instance, if its spinal cord was exposed, they would have to wear gloves during delivery.  (This is the point at which I almost lost it.)  She cheerfully proclaimed me "high risk" and recommended a Level 2 Ultrasound by a local perinatologist.  The peri's office was to call me in a couple of days, and schedule the sonogram for sometime in the next two weeks.

Are you kidding me? Two days seems like a lifetime to an expecting mother, who is imagining the worst at this point.  Two weeks sounds impossible to bear.  I didn't know what to even think.

The only positive things she said were, "There is still a 1:129 chance that your baby is healthy," and "It's still a very rare chance, but we have to test further anyway," and that she would not recommend an amnio at this point.  Honestly... all I heard was "Your child is at increased risk for spina bifida and we might have to deliver him or her wearing gloves so that we don't touch the exposed spinal cord."  Oh, and "I don't know what normal risk is, and I don't know how to read the tests."  Any positivity she tried to project after those words were uttered, was completely lost on me.  I numbly thanked her, hung up the phone, sobbed violently, begged God for this not to be happening, googled spina bifida, sobbed even more, and prayed the entire time, never stopping.  Over and over, out loud, I prayed for mercy for my child.  For this all to be a mistake.  For our baby to be healthy and to not have to suffer in this way.

I called Chris at work, and the message that I left him was almost illegible and broken because I was still crying.  When he called back, I still had not gained my composure, and I was even worse to try and talk to.  By this time, I had researched spina bifida on Wikipedia, and was shocked at what I saw and read.  Wheelchairs.  Leg braces.  Shortened life expectancy.  Among other things that I couldn't bear to read any longer.  I was an emotional wreck.  Chris sweetly and calmly assured me that whatever this ultrasound showed, that we would get through it together, and that hopefully, for our baby's sake, the test was simply incorrect and all would be well with our last child.  I love that man with all my heart.

maternity photography stacey woodsoh my sweet Lila... she says she has a baby girl in her tummy too

Four agonizing days later, Chris and I walked hand-in-hand into the perinatologist's waiting room.  My always-strong husband appeared as calm and cool as ever.  Mostly for me, I suspect.  I was a bit anxious still, even despite the peace I'd come to feel in the hours and days after that phone call.  I held tears back and tried to breathe deeply as the technician scanned for any abnormalities with our baby's head shape... its cerebellum... its spinal cord... any markers or other signs of abnormality that might indicate spina bifida in our baby.  I pensively asked questions of the technician, unsure of whether or not she would actually divulge any details or if we would have to sit and wait for the physician to inform us after the scan was complete.  I confided to her that I knew what the "lemon and banana signs" were, and she so sweetly smiled at me.  She praised me for doing my homework (what other choice did I have?) and reassured me that she saw no such thing on her monitor.  [Huge sigh of relief!]  Next she scanned many different body parts, I can't even remember all of them, but the baby finally turned so that its spinal cord presented itself beautifully to our technician.  She scanned our baby's back, zoomed in so close that I could count our baby's vertebrae, she panned up and down, and made sure to get at least three different views for the doctor to see... all confirming that our sweet baby's spine is indeed closed, fused, and that there are no further markers or signs of spina bifida whatsoever!  Our little one is perfect, as far as we can tell, and we are beyond grateful!!

stacey woods ultrasoundYou can probably guess that I sobbed again at this point, and you would be correct.  Of course.

Now, generally speaking, I do believe that most physicians actually care about our health, and that most of them truly mean well.  However, I still cannot wrap my brain around the manner in which this news was presented to us, with the utter lack of knowledge or understanding of the condition that our baby was supposedly at a higher risk for.  These are never wise words to say to an expectant mother, without facts and supporting information to give her as well!

Unrelated to this four-day nightmare, Chris and I had already decided to plan for a natural delivery, in a wonderful birth center near our home.  That phone call from my OB simply confirmed my decision that I was headed in the right direction by leaving my OB's practice.  In fact, I also called my certified nurse midwife on the day I received that terrifying phone call, and she was so reassuring to me.  She actually PRAYED with me over the phone, while I just sobbed in silence.  I can't express how powerful those moments were, on the phone with my midwife, hot tears rolling down my cheeks as she prayed for my peace, and for our sweet baby's health.

Our sweet baby GIRL, that is.  That's right, we are having another little girl!  Isn't she adorable already?

Much love,

Stacey

Lessons From My Muse

I have been thinking for quite some time about how my style developed, how I came to shoot the way I do.  Why my thought process is the way it is, and just why I want to capture such "lifestyle" moments of my clients and their families.  Why I could care less if the kids look at me and smile, and why it's perfectly fine with me if they just want to play and "ignore me" for a while.  And I realized that the entire time I was learning and practicing at home, prior to rolling out my shingle and opening my photography business... I was being trained by my son, Parker.  His actions and reactions to me and my camera would be the basis for my own style, my brand of work, and would largely shape my perspective on photography and how I approach my clients and subjects to this day. copyright stacey woods photography 2010You can read more about my journey HERE, because the sweet girls over at Our Cups Runneth Over are featuring my story and images today on their blog.  Go read it and leave some blog love if you have a minute to spare.  (Thanks Cilla and girls, for giving me the honor of being your guest poster today!)

Maybe it will cause you to think about exactly why YOU shoot the way you do... why you look at your subjects in a certain way, and how you approach your sessions altogether.  It was eye-opening for me to go through this process of breaking it all down and tracing it all back to this very sweet boy of mine.

I owe him so much.